changed my hair color… February 1, 2008

Today i finally changed my hair color.. I’ve been thinking of this since couple of weeks..

it was blond,, and now it is  red, dark one ,,,

i wanted to have a new thing ,, to change  my suck life..

last year..  same month was the worst part of my year.. i wanted to kill my self,, my life was miserable ,, so  i changed my hair color for the first time to a Blond platen color,, o since then i kept on recoloring roots with the same Blondy color.

o now, since I’m staying at home doing nothing waiting for the the NO one to come and take me out of this life,, i think that changing my hair color might help.. cz it helped last year..

anyways i liked the new ME with the new un normal red 3 purple hair color..

my sister is visiting us this weekend.. January 30, 2008

mmmm.. my sister is visiting us tomorrow,, which means i’m gonna share the room with her.. this is one of my biggest problems ,,

well 2 be honest ,, i’m kind of exited about her visit,, i want her to help me in such stuff, and i wanna go 2 the mall with her,, I’ve gt  bored from going alone most of the time,

and the interesting part in her visit this weekend is that first she is coming without her husband, second she is gonna stay for 4 days instead of 2 ( usually she stays maximum 2 days) .. i hate it when she comes with her husband, cz i can’t feel free in wearing what i want in our own house 4 days, i can’t feel free talking with my loud tone voice, i can’t use the internet freely, plus that my dad treat them as No.1  guests, o by3jgna,  

anyways the other interesting part which mom and dad are afraid from is that wither she is 24 and i’m 22 but we still fight alot.. i really can’t stand her,, my parents has only 2 daughters ,which are us,, and they are thanking Allah that we are only 2, who are totally different in everything,, we can’t agree in any thing , not a single thing , my taste is not like her in anything, cloths, people, ideas and even the type of friends,

my sister.. January 25, 2008

my sister just visited us this weekend and she is leaving tomorrow,, she just got married 6 months ago,, she lives 4 hours far from us and the last time we sow her was 3 months ago ..

anyways what I’m wondering is ,, am i gonna be different after being married as she is now,, sure not…

really she is 360 degree different,,nothing as she was before,,

she took all the bad habits from her husband and left the good ones i don’t know why,,,

I’m really not glad saying what I’m saying, but really why is she like that,, well, i was thinking, how can good things in any person change that fast,,

she was the most generous person I’ve ever known,, nothing was hers,, o that was annoying sometimes,, we used 2 call her ( bnt el5ashkji or 7atem e6a2i) she used 2 get lots of stuff to all, even if she didn’t have money, she’ll barrow and get stuff to every one, anyone, even if she hated him, she didn’t care about her stuff if they turned to be “not her stuff anymore”…

 but now,, she doesn’t just take care that no one touches her stuff, she is making sure also to get back the stuff she used to give anyone of us - her family- years ago ,, o not only that, she is trying to take everything nice in our house, from my closet, from everywhere to her house..

I got a 2 weeks job.. January 20, 2008

hay,, 

today  had a phone call from one of my old bosses offering me a job,,

an English and Computer  instructor in the same training center i used to work in 2 months ago,,

 wether i do hate to get back to that place but i accepted it ..cz it’s just a 2 weeks course ,, and its in the afternoon ,, i hate morning courses, most trainees are  old ladies ,,

any ways i can say i got a job ,, even if its for 2 weeks ,, but better than nothing ..

life is great ,,,

last day of work.. January 17, 2008

today was my last day of working,, i quit the job i was so hapy about 5 days ago,,

i went to work at 10.30 and directly 2 the manager’s office,,i hate the moment when he asked me about the reason,,since he sees it as a silly reason,,

what would u do if u are in my place, and is it normal or not..

first,the salary is not that great,,i used 2 take much more in the job i left 2 months ago,,

second,

from what i know ino in all restaurants, cafe-es, hospitals, airports, schools, and almost everywhere there are separated restrooms, toilets, bathrooms,
7mamat allah y3zkom.. one for males and other 4 females,, ela in this company,, there is only one .. for both males and females ,, sa7 ino there are only 3 females in the company,, but still we need our own toilet..

i discovered this thing the 2nd day i ws there.. o the problem ino i have 2 stay there from 8-4.. and with my morning green tea and the afternoon coffee, o water between them,, i have 2 visit that shared bathroom,,

2day i couldn’t wait .. i left work at 2 not 4,, ma 22drt ast7ml aktr,, o also i couldn’t use the company’s bathroom .. especially after seeing the Indian receptionist entering it..

if u where in my place what would u do,,
get back 2 stay at home doing nothing but sleeping and eating ,, and get back 2 my searching 4 a job life,,

or just try 2 get used to it,,

after thinking i decided that i can’t handle it,,so i quit,,

the manager was so good, and gave me more money than what i expected for those 4 working days,,

back to my great staying at home life,,

first day of work… January 14, 2008

Okz.. hay all,,

It’s me typing from my new office..

I started work yesterday,, I really hate first day of work,, feel my self as a stranger,, it sucks ,bs it goes well,, I got there an hour late than the starting time ,, but it’s ok,, it’s the first day of work,,

And when I gt there I enterd the office with a big GOODMORNING smile,, and grl with me in the office replyed and then completed what she was doing,, and ignored me,, as if no one is there,, so I sat in the second desk and kept the great smile on my face,, waiting,, for any one to recognize that there is a new employee here,, YA HOOO,,ANA HON,, after a minute( it ws an hour for me) she knew  that I was coming the boss told her,, so she  gave me a big folder and told me to start typing tell the manager comes then he’ll tell me what to do,, and got back to her disk without a word ,, tell that moment I was curious at least to know her name nothing more..i hated her.. any ways I started typing,,,

When the manager came he entered our office and give us the good morning smile.. without talking to me,, WHAT IS WORNG WITH ALL THOSE PPLE,,, I’M NEW HERE,,NO ONE WEL COME ME,,

Anyways,that was 9.30,, at 10 the cute grl with me finally spoke to me,, she just asked me if I’m bored from typing,, ana: AL7MDOLLAH SOMEONE SOW ME..        and stated talking with her, at least to know her name,,, she is NOOR.. o bs,, then the silent is back to the room.,

A man,I don’t know his position yet, came and talked with me asking where I live and how is life, and told me about his son, that he is an owner student in the university dad works in,, he is so nice to talk 2 me,,

After that maybe at 11,,the manager asked me 2 come to his office,, so when I got there ,,,he apologize for his late welcoming 4 me,, and asked me if I’m enjoying typing or not,, so funny..

2 minutes then I was back 2 sit with that boring grl( I believe in the first impression ) she mite be good. But I hate her now,,

I was suppose 2 have a full shift from 8-4,, but at 11.05 I was turned to OFF,, the night before I just slept 4 hours… since I’m used to stay awake at night and sleep after 6 a.m.,,I tried my best to get early 2 bed but I couldn’t it was 2 hard..

So back 2 at work,, 11.45  I asked my boss if I should stay tell 4 or take it as 2 shifts..he was good and told me that’s it’s up to me,, and if I want I can leave when ever I want in the first week,, he is so flexible,,

and since I was OFF,, at 12.20 I was at home,, the first word after SLAM,I’M HOME, was what is the lunch,, I WAS STARVING,, 3njad,, I went 2 work without breakfast and I didn’t eat or drink anything there, plus being sleepy,, if i drink my green tea it will help,, but there was no grren tea,,only cofee and tea,,o nescafee,but i wasn’t in th emode to drink nescafee,,

 so I ate lunch and directly zay ettoto esha6reen, to my bed, I slept from 1-5,, what a wonderful day and I didn’t get back 4 the 2nd shift,,

And today, my second day,,I came the first one to work,, every one was late I don’t know why,,

 it’s better,, it’s 1.50 now and I’m ok,, not sleepy and not hungry..     

drinking my nescafee..and my green tea before it..

NOOR, the 1 in the office with me,, she is better,, I discovered some stuff about her today,, she talked 4 like 5 min with me(the whole day only 5 min),,and I’m the one who was asking ,, and she replyies with the shortest type of answers,,

 so what I discovered is that she just started working 13 days ago,,  so I’m not suppose 2 judge her,, she is still new,, and the boss cam and gave her bhdaleh mn k3b eddest infront of me,, ya 7ram,, she hated him..

and that’s it tell now,,

by the way it’s tooooo cold, and I’m freezing..

life is so great .. and nothing is a piece of cake,,

finally a JOB,,, January 11, 2008

2 days ago at night i was watching T.V when the phone rang(i don’t  like answering phone calls even if the phone is next 2 me,, my family are suffering from that , since sometimes we gt an important phones and if mom ws busy and there is only me and her at home she has 2 cut or finish what ever she is doing then answer the phone ,, cz i wont ever do it,,what i rarely do is just look and c whose number is it,, in-case any one asks..by the way i have this problem with my mobile 2,, sometimes i don’t like answering calls,, even though i know they are 4 me not 4 anyone else,,

anyways in that day,, i don’t know why i found a new number,, so i answered it,, mom was sitting next 2 me surprised,, it wsn’t me ,,

the call was for me,, from a company , job thing, the man talking knows me and saying that we’ve had some conversation from b4 and that i already have his mobile number.. so i apologized that i can’t remember him or his company.,,

after a while of talking he told me that  i snd him my cv in April,,but still i couldn’t remember.

how ever am i gonna remember him,, i snt my cv to most companies in the area,,

anyways ,, he asked me to visit him 4 an interview,, yesterday at 10 a.m.,, o i went,,

the company place is so good,, the atmosphere is good and the most important thing is that the owner is Jordanian ,,and all the staff there are Jordanian 2,,

it’s not a usual thing to have here in Saudi ..

but the only problem is that the salary isn’t that good with the 8 working hours with 2 shifts , tell 8 p.m.,,and the job position doesn’t have anything to do with my IT BSc  ,, but for a disport person like me ,, i’ll work what ever is it ,, i need 2 get out of the house..

i’m gonna start on Saturday or Sunday..

hope that everything goes well with me,,

by the way after the interview  i remembered that man,,i used to work with him last year when i was working in sales..but outr work ws only on phone i didn’t meet him..o when i quit that job,i snt them my cv,, 8 months ago..i’m wondering  how come companies keeps CVs that long.. and expecting pple2 stay available with no job waiting for their call..

Allah likes me,,7mdollah..

…beter late than never…

life is great,, January 8, 2008

well..

to know what i will talk about,, u have first 2 know that I’m a girl who had graduated 2 years ago and tell this moment can’t stuck with a job ,, the problem is that every one is saying : how come u have an IT certificate and not working tell this moments,, companies are dying 2 hire me,, bs ana bt3zz,, u know that feeling,,

plus that i’m living with my parents  in SAUDI ARABIA after 4 years of living alone in Jordan while studying,, and really which is worse than not finding a job is 2 gt back and live with ur parents after 4 years of freedom..o where,, in saudi where u can’t call a taxi and go where ever u want ,u can’t go 2 the mall alone , u can’t drive 2 anywhere alone,WHY?? cz u are a FEMALE,,what a world,,

 anyways,,all this in a hand and in the other hand is my biggest problem which is that i can’t find friends here,, well i do have some old friend from school time,, and i’m still contacting  with them ,, but still after me living in jordan my whole mind changed,, and when i gt back ,, i don’t know  why i feel they are silly,, they doesn’t know anything about what is happening out side, out Saudi,,even there way of talking is silly ,, maybe the problem is not with them ,, it is with me,, but still i can’t count them as pple who i can feel free while talking 2,,

well,, since i graduated i worked twice,, the first job last for 3 months and the other was 5 months,,why can’t i handle a job,, i don’t know,,

in that period i gt 2 know some new pple,, bs still not as what i want,,o since i’m not a person who can trust pple easy and fast,, my relationship with them wasn’t that deep,, o i didn’t gt the time to make it deep with anyone,,

 when ever i wanna talk in something with any one i have to make a long international call with any of my friends in jordan and PAY for these calls,,

so i feel lonely plus not having a job plus living with my parents..life is soo great..

about the jobs i had,the first one was in sales,,and not any sale,,TELEMARKETING,, i couldn’t handle it so i just quit,,and stayed 2 moths without work when i had that opportunity 2 work as an English instructor in atraining center ,, it sucks from the first day ,, but my parents and every one forced me 2 stay in it,, cz i have 2 work,,

I’m a person who hate teaching ,, i don’t have the ability 2 teach plus that i hate it,,i really felt sorry for the girls i was teaching,, i might be good in it but i hate it,,plus that i ws teaching basic english ,, and the ABC part also 2 ladies not in a school 2 kids,,

by the way in the last 3 months of teaching i tried 2 quit but the training center’s boss i was working in refused.. thy said that i was good,, sure i was a workaholic,,bs 3sho,, in something that i hate,,with a low salary,,so i left them,,

 and here I’m since December 1st at home doing nothing,, waking up after or around 3ser,,sleeping after praying fjer,, what a life

 can anyone hire me,,o bnooboh fyee thwab,,

posiTIVE thinking.. January 7, 2008

by the way i figure out a benefit for staying at home and not working or as what i call  3A6EL 3N EL3MAL/ MSA3ED 2A3ED job,, is that u can think alot,, think how miserable ur life is,,and in the other hand how lucky you are ,,
2 days ago i while i ws having my daily walking hour, i was thinking that how my feeling will change if i think in a positive way,, and i tried 2 find the things that makes me happy,, sure not compare it with the things that doesn’t cz the ones that doesn’t are much more.. so my brain started working 2 find out that my life is great ,, letterly is great,,
things that can make me happy were,,

-at least that i have my own room ,, no need 2 share it with anyone,,i’m still having memories stuck from the days i used 2 live in the university dorms,and share place with others.
-that i can gt out anytime without waiting in lines for my parents permission.
-that i have a good brothers who are not annoying,,they are,bs better than others.
-that i’m pretty and missing nothing..

-and many other thoughts..

wallahi i couldn’t believe my self thinking this way,, but it helped,,
it ws one of the moments that i could identify my self as MJNOONEH,,laugh 4 no reason,, but it helped..

that’s one of sitting home with no work benefit,,

my life is great..

a kid’s SMILE,,, December 27, 2007

The greatest thing ever is to draw a smile on a kid’s face ,, tomorrow is my brother’s birthday – the youngest one -12 years- the super spoiled kid ever..

since months ago , almost weekly I have 2 hear the question ,,WHAT ARE U GONNA GET ME IN MY BIRTHDAY ???

last year I didn’t get him that great thing ,, I wasn’t working yet so my budget wasn’t that much,, but this year he knew that there is NO limit for the budget-I was mistaken to tell him that info once-

so I told him to pick what ever gift he want and my duty was just to pay… but he didn’t like this idea he wanted me 2 go and pick the gift for him to give him a moment of surprise when he c it ,,NO WAY I’LL CHOOSE HIS OWN GIFT ALONE,, it’s too risky,,

and since tomorrow he’ll be busy(( he invites his friends to a party I’m forced to make for him)),, my parents never made me or 2 any of my brothers any kind of birthday parties ,,we used 2 have a cake and sweet stuff 2 eat and sing the song together-only family members- not like him,,,

anyways, we went 2 couple stores today ,, and finally he found his gifts,, after he found the first one I was so glad dancing in the store that finally he found what he want ,we can go home ,,but in our way 2 the cash counter he found anther thing ..And gave me the poor look with a question I’M CONFUSED,,CAN I HAVE THE BOTH ???

o since he is –a5r el3ngood- no one can say NO,, and If I did so he wont forget it ever,, and he’ll directly turn it to MONEY and say IF U DON’T HAVE MONEY I CAN PAY FOR IT,,

 

finally we got home safely,, and tell this moment he is really so happy thanking me,, with a big smile,, that’s all what I wanted 2 c..

 

Smile